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There’s something about handmade gifts that makes it really special. One of the most precious gifts I’ve ever received was a beautifully handmade frame that displayed an equally beautiful bible verse. When I moved from my old job to my current job, it was the only thing I made sure to bring with me because I loved it so much. I carefully placed it on the ledge of my window sill – the perfect place so that my eyes would meet it at least once a day (if not more), just so I could read the verse and be filled with hope again and again, day after day.
I established a routine every morning at my job: Unlock my office door. Hang up my jacket. Grab a cup of coffee. Turn on my computer. Stare out the window. Look at the frame. Read the verse. Then start my day.
A few months into my job, I felt the Lord prompt me to give the frame away to one of my co-workers. First thought: “No, it’s mine! I love it.” Second thought: “Someone made that for me!” Third thought: “That’s weird! I don’t even know her.” I fought the feeling in my heart for a good month (or more, haha). I even dodged my co-worker because every time I saw her, I was reminded of what I didn’t want to do. And every time I ran into her, my heart would thump and thump and thump. It was so annoying! HAHA, I knew the Lord was asking me to let go of something I loved. Maybe to most people, it doesn’t seem like a big deal. But to me, it was a precious and priceless gift.
Then one day, she walked into my office to say hello, wondering why she hasn’t seen me for awhile. Haha, whoops… My bad. Finally, after a good 5 minutes of her talking and me not listening because I was wrestling with my heart, I interrupted her mid-sentence and forced myself to quickly say something before I changed my mind: “I need to give you something!!!” I walked to my window, picked up the frame, and handed it to her. “This is for you to keep. Read it!”
She took the frame and read the bible verse. And as she did, she began to weep. Turns out her mother had just passed away the other day, and like anyone would, she had been overwhelmed with feelings of hopelessness. And it would be this bible verse that would reinstill hope in her. I remember the Lord speaking so clearly to me in my office that day: “Letting go is not easy. But trust me, Maila. It will always be worth it.” In that moment I realized that sometimes the Lord asks us to let go of things because greater than the reward of having something is the reward in giving it away as a blessing. You see, I didn’t lose anything. To this day, that bible verse is inscripted in my heart. And to this day it is also inscripted in the heart of my coworker. When I chose to let go, we both gained. That’s how the kingdom works.
I completely forgot about this moment until I was cleaning my office today and realized my frame was no longer there. The same coworker came to my office and shared how it’s been a year since her mother passed. It’s funny how God allows things to come full circle. To be honest, letting go of this job amongst other things hasn’t been easy. I really really love it. But more than that, I’m happy to say that I’m not kicking and screaming and dodging the Lord’s request. I really believe that there are people out there waiting for an answered prayer, and the best thing we can do as sons and daughters is to say YES to our good Father. Sometimes, that means saying YES to letting go of things we love so that we can become love to someone in need. It may not be easy. But I’m certain that if we just trust the Lord with all of our hearts, we’ll reap the reward in seeing that it truly is worth it.
“I placed the sand as the boundary for the sea, a perpetual barrier that it cannot pass; though the waves toss, they cannot prevail; though they roar, they cannot pass over it.” Jeremiah 5:22